As I have admitted before, I seriously suck with this whole blog this. But as I sit here slurping on my strawberry chocolate Shakeology waiting to go to the gym, I got somewhat inspired. Maybe it’s because it’s the first day of Spring! Maybe it’s because I know I haven’t posted in a while.
Maybe it’s the lyrics to Big Time Rush… Whatever the reason here I am.
The last 2 weeks have been rough. My dad and I have stepped up our game and we go to Planet Fitness Monday-Friday when possible. I don’t run everyday, as much as I think that’s what I should be doing. But I’ve hit a wall. One day just getting through 2 miles takes every once of effort I have. And then a few days later I’m THIIIIIIIS close to PR’ing my 5k time. Like what the hell. My mind and my body are not i
And that’s when the doubt starts working it’s way up. I think I’ve done a really good job at staying positive so far, but last week I had some demons to battle. For example…Who the *%>|!£ signs up to do a 10 MILE RUN before they can do anything longer than 3 miles?
My husband goes a really great job calming me down when I turn into a head case. He believes in me far more then I ever could. My dad is also well versed in my craziness and told me to contact my friend who is a trainer to ask her advice. I don’t like to bother her because she is quite possibly the busiest person I’ve ever met. But she cleared her schedule for me last Friday and she’s writing me an insan(ly good) plan of attack for the next 6 months. AMO is legit one of the most amazing people I have in my life. Next week I should be able to start my program and then I’ll start feeling better.
I really admire people who can just go out and run. I have such a long journey to come. My first outside run since October was a hot mess. The treadmill has me so conditioned to follow the numbers on the magic running machine that I’ve forgotten how to listen to my body and pace myself out.
I also need to replace my effing heart rate monitor.
But each day is a new day. And I have honestly never wanted anything as much as I want to run these races. I’ve always given up on myself and my dreams. But not this time. I’ve surrounded myself with a really fantastic support system that I’m just realizing I have.
Don’t even hesitate
Just let it escalate